I just wanted to tell you all that my MIL's surgery seems to have gone well and she is recovering. I know the upcoming months will be hard but we are off to a good start.
My mom is in a rehab facility and doing well also.
AND I did both of my shots myself last night! Brooke was on the phone so I used that as my opportunity to just do it. Funny my two biggest fears were poking my hand because I flinched or closed my eyes as I usually do or I would actually poke the needle in and forget to push the plunger or something. Well I did start to go for it and hesitated but not until I did actually prick my tummy. I couldn't believe it I just started laughing at myself I didn't even feel it I just saw my skin pull back. At that point I just stuck it in and it was fine. Did the second one and done! I was so proud of myself :) Then ten min later after the adrenalin wore off I was like ouch but I think it was all in my head.
I also went to a therapy session last night. I didn't realize how much venting can help and not having to filter or worry about who would hear this or that made all the difference. This blog also helps a bunch too so thanks for reading.
Wednesday, February 27, 2013
Tuesday, February 26, 2013
Attemp 13 CD2
OK I have been taking my estrogen pills since CD21 of last cycle waiting to get my period. AF arrived on Sunday so we called it in to the Dr. I was told that since it was late in the day they were going to make Monday CD1 so today is 2 and I start my stim shots tonight. I am actually going to make an attempt at giving them to myself this round because in this cycle I will HAVE to. Oh and I have decided to transfer 3 this time and maybe on day 3 not 5 since that worked the first time. I'm all in! Here we go!
In other not so fun news toooo much has happened. Most if not all of this has nothing to do with babies but it is my life. Around Christmas we found out my MIL has breast cancer. She went in for a lumpectomy in January and they found it to be almost stage 3 and not a good kind of cancer if that could even be! She actually had a mastectomy done TODAY. She will have to have chemo and radiation and the Dr's say it will be hard but doable and I know she is a fighter.
My mother also had a mammogram done about the same time oddly enough, and they also found a spot that thank god turned out to be nothing. She had also been petitioning for a tummy tuck with insurance thinking it would never happen but miraculously they approved it. So just about a week ago she went in for that surgery. I couldn't believe it but they sent her home that night after a 5 hour surgery. I guess this is normal but what they didn't account for is my mom is not normal! She got up that night around 1am to pee and fell. As if that's not bad enough she broke her ankle. So just a few days later she had to have another surgery to put pins in her foot. Now they are keeping her in the hospital/rehab until she can walk on her own.
With all this I feel like I am going insane. I am putting hormones in my body that already make me emotional and I hate that but with all this it just takes the slightest thing and I go mad just to stop myself from crying. Tensions are high in my house.
I was feeling very bad about my mother because I was so dismissive about her surgery. I mean she was so excited about it and I know she has my step father and friends to help after, and in light of all my MIL's stuff and my next cycle she was in a good place, until she fell. Now my cycle starts and Brooke will need to help her mom out. I feel bad because I want to help as well but I am stuck close to home because of pets and Dr. appts. This is why I will have to do my own shots.
I do know things will settle down in time and we can't stop everything or we will never get knocked up but this is a lot. You never know how good you have it until.............
I am going to do my best to get positive. I feel like after my MIL is back home and comfortable recovering from surgery I will feel a little better. I worry about Brooke because if you know her at all you would know she is a sensitive person in general but now..., who wouldn't be if it were your mom.
I am looking forward to a month from now. We will be pregnant my mom will be running about with a little tummy and my dear MIL will be pushing through her procedures like a trooper so she can enjoy all her grand babies. Life is hard sometimes but I hope it makes us appreciate the good stuff more.
Lots of love because we all need it.
In other not so fun news toooo much has happened. Most if not all of this has nothing to do with babies but it is my life. Around Christmas we found out my MIL has breast cancer. She went in for a lumpectomy in January and they found it to be almost stage 3 and not a good kind of cancer if that could even be! She actually had a mastectomy done TODAY. She will have to have chemo and radiation and the Dr's say it will be hard but doable and I know she is a fighter.
My mother also had a mammogram done about the same time oddly enough, and they also found a spot that thank god turned out to be nothing. She had also been petitioning for a tummy tuck with insurance thinking it would never happen but miraculously they approved it. So just about a week ago she went in for that surgery. I couldn't believe it but they sent her home that night after a 5 hour surgery. I guess this is normal but what they didn't account for is my mom is not normal! She got up that night around 1am to pee and fell. As if that's not bad enough she broke her ankle. So just a few days later she had to have another surgery to put pins in her foot. Now they are keeping her in the hospital/rehab until she can walk on her own.
With all this I feel like I am going insane. I am putting hormones in my body that already make me emotional and I hate that but with all this it just takes the slightest thing and I go mad just to stop myself from crying. Tensions are high in my house.
I was feeling very bad about my mother because I was so dismissive about her surgery. I mean she was so excited about it and I know she has my step father and friends to help after, and in light of all my MIL's stuff and my next cycle she was in a good place, until she fell. Now my cycle starts and Brooke will need to help her mom out. I feel bad because I want to help as well but I am stuck close to home because of pets and Dr. appts. This is why I will have to do my own shots.
I do know things will settle down in time and we can't stop everything or we will never get knocked up but this is a lot. You never know how good you have it until.............
I am going to do my best to get positive. I feel like after my MIL is back home and comfortable recovering from surgery I will feel a little better. I worry about Brooke because if you know her at all you would know she is a sensitive person in general but now..., who wouldn't be if it were your mom.
I am looking forward to a month from now. We will be pregnant my mom will be running about with a little tummy and my dear MIL will be pushing through her procedures like a trooper so she can enjoy all her grand babies. Life is hard sometimes but I hope it makes us appreciate the good stuff more.
Lots of love because we all need it.
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